written: (dec.9) morning
I woke up at five thirty in the morning with the alarm of my cellphone. I ate breakfast afterwards which was prepared by my father - egg with onions, cheese dogs and rice with a little drink of my father's coffee. About six o'clock, I finished eating and took my vitamins, then took a bath. While I am taking a bath with warm water, I sang the songs I've heard yesterday on the movie we've seen - "Heto na naman, pabugso-bugso ang aking puso..." I was with my boyfriend yesterday and we watched "My Amnesia Girl" in SM north Edsa. We were so happy. We laughed all the time, we had fun and we ate ice cream. I really love that day, it was special to me. I got home I think around ten in the evening.
When I woke up, as I remembered, the first words in my mind was Princess' saying on Survivor Philippines, Celebrity Showdown. Princess was the first castaway who lived the island voluntarily. She said, "Why now, then tomorrow and suffered there in the island..." I got that on my mind, repeatedly saying it with a tone like her's.
I finished preparing my self and ready to go to school. I wore the department shirt, the red one and a pants. I got my allowance from my father, then he said,"Did you pray?", I smiled then whispered YES but the truth was not. I just said "sorry" (thinking the new commercial of Nestea). Then I left. I walked about twenty steps away from home and I remembered I forgot my phone. I came back and got it above the refrigerator and put it on my left pocket. At first I said to my mind not to get it but I felt uncomfortable because that's where I look for time and so I came back, got it and left again.
I walked through the streets going to the bus stop. I felt relaxed because I remembered yesterday and so just walked and still singing, "Heto na naman, pabugso-bugso ang aking puso..." I called for a bus. The bus' first door located at the middle had two men standing there. When I entered, it was hard to go up because they're two big men so I pushed my self up. The first man in the door touched my back-pack then I looked at him strangely. After awhile, the "con-doctor" asked for my payments, and so I gave. I stepped a little forward to grabbed or hold a support from the chair's back. Someone came beside me wearing silky black jacket. My hands were at my side but the bus was you know, it's moving, so it made me unbalance then I put my left hand at the handle on the ceiling. Suddenly, the man with black jacket was gone. I get curious and all of the sudden, a big man wearing white shirt asked a "para" then all the men near the door were gone.
I felt something was uncommon. Something's different from the other days I went to school and ride a bus. I touched my pants, especially my left pocket. SHIT! A big shit! My cellphone was gone. I took a look at my bag, tried to find my phone but I know I put it on my pocket. A big shit! It was about five minutes since I left home for the second time and got my phone. Gosh! That time, I want to shout bad words, "GUSTO KONG MAMURA!!" - putang ina lahat ng magnanakaw! KILL THEM! Put them in grave ALIVE! Bullshit!
I was stocked in the reality that my phone was gone. My parents gave me money for the renewal of it's LCD and speaker about two weeks ago. Actually I want it to look brand new, I was planning to buy a new casing but then it's not anymore. USELESS! Why it was lost today not last months or last years when the time it's broken? Why now when it's look better? grrr.
The "con-doctor" asked me "nadukutan ka?", my eyes started to look teary. I'm trying to stop my tears from falling. All the passengers looked at me.Gosh!, I felt pity. I said "OO" and no other words came out. I still standing in the isle of the bus looking to no where. I'm still trying to recall my mind n how does it happened, from the time I called a bus 'till the time I found myself standing feeling the PAIN, the pain in my heart, in my mind, the pain in my whole body, and the pain I can'y explain. I felt sorry for my parents, I felt sorry for myself, and I felt sorry for them- The SNATCHERS!
I recalled myself that because of tiredness from yesterday, I forgot to pray, I forgot to asked for guidance from HIM. Then I realized, maybe because of that, It was meant for me. That's what God planned for me this morning.
I got my sit when somebody's went out of the bus. I realized I was so STUPID not looking at the man's face wearing black jacket and not being conscious on myself and the people and things around me. I felt really in pain. I'm so sad.
At the last station, of course the bus stopped. I went down, walked and ride a jeep. The girl at my back said, "Diba ikaw ung kanina sa bus?", I nodded. "May pamasahe ka na? San ka ba pupunta?", I nodded again, "Ano ba nawala sa'yo?" Teary eyes again. I felt thankful and relief, someone's cared. I said shyly "cellphone" and she understood.
I arrived at school (COC), I didn't know what time it is (my phone was gone). I saw Daria and Sheena when I entered the room. I sitted beside them and tell the whole story. I cried but a little then they cared. I was "nanghihinayang" with my phone. All my memories were there in the calendar, all the important dates - I MISSED MY PHONE :( I want it back. I love Sony Ericson. I want it, I like it, exactly as it. If I had a chance to have a cell phone again, I want that one. That was a gift from my auntie, and that's why I treasured it.
After I told the whole story, I asked Daria, "Pa-text". I texted my miele, that my phone was stolen. And the saying " Because I love yesterday and so I hate today" came out on my mind then started writing this. During our first class, English 1023, I started writing this. I dont listen to the professor (Mrs. Salting). During the next class, I still not yet done writing this.
In second class, with tatay Soriano, we had an open forum - whole BBRC 1-4. The speech was started at the back. I was not listening. I'm busy writing this, "nakikitawa lang ako at nakikinig naman minsan", untill Sheena's turn. Sheena said that Beatris and me should forgive each other and make bati-bati na. Tatay made the first move. He called me infront and so Bea. We said each other's forgiveness and we hugged. I cried, not because of that moment, but because something's bad happened earlier. After hugging, I said to tatay that my phone was snatched that's why I cried. "parang dun ko nabuhos yung nararamdaman ko". Then tatay said that he will buy me a second hand cell phone that cost 500php only. I laughed, I thought it was a joke but I am hoping it's not. Then I get excited. Now I'm glad, the pain I felt was not that big anymore. Then after that moment, I thought I should add "But I Like it" on the title.
In third class (Media Law and Ethics), I was not yet done because I paused for a while to memorize the 1987 Philippine Constitution Article 3, Section 4 to be recited to Ma'am Ara. Then of course, for just a minute, I'm proud to say i memorized it easily. I recited, no wrong and then finished this afterwards.
1987 Philippine Constitution Article 3, Section 4 states that no law shall be passed abridging the freedom of speech, of expression, of the press, or the right of the people peaceably to assemble and petition the government for the redress of the grievances. (poof!) ^_^
I can say to myself that anything happens for a reason. I should consider my security. I don't care if I lost something, I should care for my self that I still have everything. I may not have cell phone today or tomorrow but I could have it SOON!
I know I'm very unconscious to myself, I admit it, and that's what my father's telling me. All I can say is "napaka-bilis nang pangyayari". Now I'm regreting that I should not get my phone when I first left the house. But still, this is all planned. It was set for me and I believe this is my destiny. I'm looking forward for the good news that will come. I believe in every bad moments, there will come for a good one.
finished:(dec.9) noon
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Additional: Evening (dec.9):
I typed this. I got home around seven in the evening. I got home late because I took the seminar with some of my classmates. I had fun with the seminar. It was accommodated by the Radio Veritas846 and COC's organizations. That seminar is worthwhile because it only cost twenty pesos then we already have snacks (pancit, little bread, and juice) and dinner (chicken and rice with ma dessert maja). For twenty pesos we got new lessons, new, bonding experience, and not only that, it made our stomach full.
When I got home, no one is here in the house, only the workers. My parents were out of the house and I felt not nervous, I felt I wanted to sat it now, I can't wait anymore. I want to released the pain because I know after I talked to my parents will give relief. I waited, so while waiting, I typed this and chatted with miele :)
Gosh this is it. My parents were homed. They're here already. I followed what Sheena said on how to say it. I said to my parents that I have good news and I have bad news. My father replied, "what's the good news?" Then I said it was the seminar with low cost but worthwhile. That I said, " at ang bad news ay..." I shouted first, " waaaah". "Nadukutan ako nang cell phone." Well, as usual, same reaction same advice same insult and nothing's change.
I will pray before I live the house.I swear. Lord, Pls. this is the last :(
*finally, it's REALLY done* 12:02am (dec.10)
I MISS YOU :(
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